My love.. do you still permit me to call you that? I wish I could grow up with you, I really do. I don't want you now; we're young and stupid.. I know it won't work out now. I don't want a reckless relationship with you. I want you in my future. Right now, all I want is for you to be my friend, to be my support, to always be by my side. When we grow up... I want more. I want you to be the father of my children. I want to see you when you hold the bundle of joy that I will carry for you for 9 months. I want to observe how our little daughter will slowly steal all the love you had for me. I want to be mesmerized by the view of you carrying our children in the world; protecting them like how you protected me, my love. I want to be by your side when you do that. I want to look into your eyes and remind myself how blessed I am to have someone as amazing as you in my life. I want our son to have that weird haircut you had in 4th grade. I want to have midnight conversations about our mistakes and the silly things we used to do. I want to laugh the night away with you. I want to remind you how I fell in love with you in the first place. I hope one day, we'll travel the world. You always said, "Italy for honeymoon." I still remember, love. We talked about going to the UK to see one direction, sounds silly I know. You went to your first concert already but I hope my first is gonna be by your side. I hope my firsts, my lasts and all that's in between is gonna be with you.
I want our children to think of us whenever they're asked what the definition of love is. I don't want anything fancy. All I want is you, a shelter and a family. You grew up with a step-dad; I don't want our children to face that. I want to show you that true love still exists. Its a shame that a love like ours would go to waste. I don't want to lose you because I know no one will be able to love you as much as I do and no one will be able to make me as happy as you do. I want us to go through everything together; the bad times, the good times. I am willing to go to hell and back if you're by my side, love.
I want you to make me feel safe while I give you unconditional love. Most importantly, I don't ever want to be apart from you. I want to watch as your hair turns from black to grey and then to lighter shades and finally white. And when you don't have hair anymore? I'll still be madly in love with you.I loved you three years ago and I still didn't lose an ounce of love that I have for you. My love for you has only increased; my love for you has overflown from my weak heart. I finally made up my mind, I'm in love with the guy who ruined my life, I've always been.
Promise me that you'll always know that although life has torn us apart, my love for you will always stay; nothing can take that away. And if one day you change your mind, I'll gladly welcome you back into my arms again as a friend and slowly we'll develop to lovers again. I hope your eyes stay as enchanting as they did when they first saw right through me. The silence of the moment when we hold each other, show the love that no words could ever describe. You hold a place in my heart that no one could ever replace. I really hope that one day fate will stitch us back together, my love.
